I just want people to hear me out... please just read and give me adive on how to handle this?

Ok my name is ryan wallace and i am a only child. So anyways me and my mother had a apartment and we decided we wanted to move to Texas with my cousin. So first we needed some money to save up, we dicided to move with my aunt so we were there for a few months and once we saved up enought to leave we left. Once we got there Which i dident Know my cousin was like rich and he had this like huge mansion house something me and my mother could never afford... i thought ''i could get used to something like this'' i had alot of fun there and we where there for like a year almost, i like got watever i wanted every video game ext. EVERYTHING I WANTED i got so used to that place i got settled in to a school and everyone called me the rich kidd because of all the gucci and louie vaton, true religion jeans all the jordans and nikes and stuff like that.! i even was wearing gucci watches and chains even tho it wasent mine it was the wifes children my cousin was married to:( so i basiclly faked everything at school and stuff! so then my mom and cousin started arguing and my mom decided we should leave which was HEARTBREAKING I DIDENT WANT TO LEAVE AT ALL I LOVED IT THERE so my mom left anywayz and know im stuck at a small little roach infested apartment and im not used to it i just wish my mom would hurry and get a nice job so it can be better because my cousins wifes children told me they started a a small little apartment and worked there way up.... alott huh i feel sad noww!!